Its something how death comes into play. One minute your talking, laughing and joking. And the next, your planning a funeral.
Life is so quick. I know for me. It was a blow in the stomach. My cousin (as mist may or may not now by now) Daron passed away this year, and i still have mixed feelings about the whole thing. I was VERY close to my cousin. I know when we were younger, we had our differences. But as we got older, we put that aside and became closer than ever.
I wanted to be more than a cousin to him. I wanted to be a close friend. I wanted him to say (later in life) that no matter what anyone said or what went on, I could always talk to my cousin, She was always the one that kept me on my toes. (Even though I was older than her by a couple of months).
Of course that never got to take place. I would always call him and make sure that he was ok. Make sure that he knew that I loved him. Make sure that he knew that I was proud of him.
The last time I saw him alive was Thanksgiving of 08' and when everyone was going home, he gave me a hug and I didn't realize how strong that hug was,until now. He gave me a hug and picked me up. And said that he would see me that next weekend. (We had made plans to see each other that next weekend. Me him and my sister. We never got to see him that weekend but I had assume we would see him again that next Thanksgiving.
Well, now as I see my family and friends. I call them more and give long hugs and kisses. Because i know see that you never know if you will see them again. Now that I think of it. Maybe that is was my grandfather was talking about when he told me to call my great-grandmother (of my mother's side), when SHE was alive. I heard what my grandfather was saying but i never truly understood it until now. I think that is what Tyrese meant also. I notice that when my family tells me things it doesn't stick until someone like Tyrese (or life in general), says it.
Its interesting, I love how Tyrese talks about his personal issues and experiences (rather church or life) to his fans so that they can put it into their lives. I am able to better understand things much better with SayNow than I have if I listen to a family member.
I don't quite understand life or death. But I have more of an outlook of things now than I ever have before as a child or as an adult. I have heard Chris Brown and Brandy both say that they are human. That they are still learning, and I guess I am too. I still have my sad crying moments dealing with my cousins passing. I just hope that I can get it together.
I have a different opinion on things and I think that i don't see eye to eye on certain topics and things in life. That is the reason why I am writing and doing this blog, so that I can have other views and people can share their sight on things and comment on my topic. Maybe have a normal conversation as to arguing about what we disagree on.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Brandy
Ever since I was a little girl, I was a fan of Brandy. My first cd that I ever owned was Brandy's first cd. I used to think that I wanted to be a singer. Throughout her career, I have collected her cd's. (Now as far me having ALL of her the cds now? The answer would be no). I have recited,learned and memorized her lyrics. I have done projects on her and watched movies,shows,documentaries, on her. I have went to at least ONE concert of hers. In middle school, my teacher SWORE i even looked like her (I still question that to this day. Not that I don't wanna be compared to someone like her, because she is beautiful).
She started her career singing in the church choir. She then moved on to talent shows. Then went on to do a show called Thea! (Now i grew up watching the reruns of this show, I didnt know of the show when it was out). After that she did music, movies, and tv shows.
She did the show (that everyone remember her by) called Moesha. I remember at one point my mother didnt want us to watch it. She did commericals also! I know at one point in her career, she did a hairline. (She put her name on a line for selling hair).
Her first album was called Brandy-full of lessons learned and love songs. She was young when this cd came out.
Then she had an album called Never Say Never. This was a more fun,energetic Brandy.
Her third album was called Full Moon-Brandy had REALLY grown up by this album,she was not the girl Brandy we were used to.
Her fourth album was called Afrodisiac. This album shows her more sexier side of Brandy. We were used to her grown side by then.
And her recent album is called Human. This was the more personal side of Brandy. (This is the album that I was the most proud of. I could relate to this cd more than the other.)
As far as her history and personal life:
Her name: Brandy Norwood
Birthday: February 11, 1979
She was with a music producer by name of Robert and later the relationship ended. And then she was engaged to a professional basketball player by the name of Quinten. (And according to a YouTube research by me of the Tyra Banks show, relationship ended.).
When then found out that Brandy was pregnant (which I evidently forgot that I am NOT part of their family, was SO happy and excited to hear! Like it was MY sister or family member that it happend to!). With the help of a documentary, from a well known music channel, ( I think it was MTV or was it VH1?) the world got to witness the last few days of Brandy's pregnancy and birth of her daughter Syrai' Norwood.
One of the great things that this family does together is the foundation for young kids. Its called (last time I heard) The Norwood Foundation.
One of Brandy's lessons learned from life was the very public mishaps that occurred in her life. (Not sure of the date) One day, Brandy goes to out and was in an accident. The lady that was involved in the accident, did not make it unfortunately. Brandy did was she had to do and (according to reports and such) apologized to the family. She mourned even though she did not know this lady.
But Brandy was able to move on from that incident and live her life. Regardless of what was said, and how the media tried to tear her apart. I will say that I am very proud of her. I will say that everyone makes mistakes and everyone makes bad choices. I was thrown off when I heard the news, (and wished I was there with her to comfort her) and I hoped that she would be able to heal from that. I know its an eternal wound, but I will say that she is (which her cd is properly named) HUMAN.
I sometimes wish that I can pick up the phone and car her. Especially when my cousin passed away. I needed to be able to call someone who could comfort me or come by and help me through my rough time. For some reason, I feel a certain connection to her. I feel as though she is my sister, well the big sister that I've always wanted. If she was to read this: I wanna say thank to her and Tyrese for their music and extra inspirations that they give to others. They really never how and who they touch with their humor and voices. They say,"The smallest things goes a long way."
I love you and I appreciate everything and I hope to meet you and hangout.
Love Krystal.
To: Brandy aka. B-Rocka
She started her career singing in the church choir. She then moved on to talent shows. Then went on to do a show called Thea! (Now i grew up watching the reruns of this show, I didnt know of the show when it was out). After that she did music, movies, and tv shows.
She did the show (that everyone remember her by) called Moesha. I remember at one point my mother didnt want us to watch it. She did commericals also! I know at one point in her career, she did a hairline. (She put her name on a line for selling hair).
Her first album was called Brandy-full of lessons learned and love songs. She was young when this cd came out.
Then she had an album called Never Say Never. This was a more fun,energetic Brandy.
Her third album was called Full Moon-Brandy had REALLY grown up by this album,she was not the girl Brandy we were used to.
Her fourth album was called Afrodisiac. This album shows her more sexier side of Brandy. We were used to her grown side by then.
And her recent album is called Human. This was the more personal side of Brandy. (This is the album that I was the most proud of. I could relate to this cd more than the other.)
As far as her history and personal life:
Her name: Brandy Norwood
Birthday: February 11, 1979
She was with a music producer by name of Robert and later the relationship ended. And then she was engaged to a professional basketball player by the name of Quinten. (And according to a YouTube research by me of the Tyra Banks show, relationship ended.).
When then found out that Brandy was pregnant (which I evidently forgot that I am NOT part of their family, was SO happy and excited to hear! Like it was MY sister or family member that it happend to!). With the help of a documentary, from a well known music channel, ( I think it was MTV or was it VH1?) the world got to witness the last few days of Brandy's pregnancy and birth of her daughter Syrai' Norwood.
One of the great things that this family does together is the foundation for young kids. Its called (last time I heard) The Norwood Foundation.
One of Brandy's lessons learned from life was the very public mishaps that occurred in her life. (Not sure of the date) One day, Brandy goes to out and was in an accident. The lady that was involved in the accident, did not make it unfortunately. Brandy did was she had to do and (according to reports and such) apologized to the family. She mourned even though she did not know this lady.
But Brandy was able to move on from that incident and live her life. Regardless of what was said, and how the media tried to tear her apart. I will say that I am very proud of her. I will say that everyone makes mistakes and everyone makes bad choices. I was thrown off when I heard the news, (and wished I was there with her to comfort her) and I hoped that she would be able to heal from that. I know its an eternal wound, but I will say that she is (which her cd is properly named) HUMAN.
I sometimes wish that I can pick up the phone and car her. Especially when my cousin passed away. I needed to be able to call someone who could comfort me or come by and help me through my rough time. For some reason, I feel a certain connection to her. I feel as though she is my sister, well the big sister that I've always wanted. If she was to read this: I wanna say thank to her and Tyrese for their music and extra inspirations that they give to others. They really never how and who they touch with their humor and voices. They say,"The smallest things goes a long way."
I love you and I appreciate everything and I hope to meet you and hangout.
Love Krystal.
To: Brandy aka. B-Rocka
Tyrese
Ok, so you remember Tyrese from the hit movie Baby Boy as Jody?
Ok well. He has his hands full.
Past: Movies - Baby Boy, Transformers 1 and 2, Annapolis, Waist Deep, etc
Music - Sweet Lady, Lately, and One. (and etc.......)
He's from Watts,California and when he starts in one direction, he doesnt stop there......he keeps going.
He went from the Cola Cola commerical and is doing some amazing things.
He what people may not know is doing comicbooks.........YES I said it COMICBOOKS! He has his first one out and published called Mayhem. He is a superhero that saves characters in Watts. Don't worry, he's a good guy lol.
He is doin his second issue of Mayhem and is planning up his third issue.
He is doing working with his production company. Called HQ Productions that works with tv shows,movies,music,artist management,etc.
He is recently doing a show on BET called "First In" which is a behind the scenes look into firefighters everyday life. It is a great show that i personally have become addicted to. I will admit I was a little hestitate at first because I thought it was a firefighter's version of COPS. The difference is you get to see them at breaks from work, and at home with thier family struggles,not just the jobs.
He also is into the voicemail fan connected site called SayNow! This site,, allows fans to "call" thier artist and listen to a voice message that their favorite artist leaves. The artist is able to call the fans back! Tyrese leaves regular message about different projects,concerts and events that they are promoting. But Tyrese (as always) went a step further and leaves spiritual, inspiriational messages too! He leaves fun messages too if he feels his fans or shall i say family, deserves it.
He also has a facebook and twitter site. Where he does the same.
His twitter is: @Tyrese4Real
His SayNow Number is: 818-287-8968
But out of ALL the success, achievements,and hardships that Tyrese Gibson goes through, his 1st and most prized treasure is his daughter Shayla Gibson. He talks about her ALL the time. He even shares his pictures and time spent with her with his "family"(fans).
With these outlets to Tyrese' life, as a fan, I will say that I am glad that he lets us in like he does (even though we have some mentallly challenged individuals that want to spoil this chance, by becoming an annoyance to artist like him), because it gives me the feeling like I know him but I don't. I am very proud of him and appreciate what he does for others. I would love to meet him.
Ok well. He has his hands full.
Past: Movies - Baby Boy, Transformers 1 and 2, Annapolis, Waist Deep, etc
Music - Sweet Lady, Lately, and One. (and etc.......)
He's from Watts,California and when he starts in one direction, he doesnt stop there......he keeps going.
He went from the Cola Cola commerical and is doing some amazing things.
He what people may not know is doing comicbooks.........YES I said it COMICBOOKS! He has his first one out and published called Mayhem. He is a superhero that saves characters in Watts. Don't worry, he's a good guy lol.
He is doin his second issue of Mayhem and is planning up his third issue.
He is doing working with his production company. Called HQ Productions that works with tv shows,movies,music,artist management,etc.
He is recently doing a show on BET called "First In" which is a behind the scenes look into firefighters everyday life. It is a great show that i personally have become addicted to. I will admit I was a little hestitate at first because I thought it was a firefighter's version of COPS. The difference is you get to see them at breaks from work, and at home with thier family struggles,not just the jobs.
He also is into the voicemail fan connected site called SayNow! This site,, allows fans to "call" thier artist and listen to a voice message that their favorite artist leaves. The artist is able to call the fans back! Tyrese leaves regular message about different projects,concerts and events that they are promoting. But Tyrese (as always) went a step further and leaves spiritual, inspiriational messages too! He leaves fun messages too if he feels his fans or shall i say family, deserves it.
He also has a facebook and twitter site. Where he does the same.
His twitter is: @Tyrese4Real
His SayNow Number is: 818-287-8968
But out of ALL the success, achievements,and hardships that Tyrese Gibson goes through, his 1st and most prized treasure is his daughter Shayla Gibson. He talks about her ALL the time. He even shares his pictures and time spent with her with his "family"(fans).
With these outlets to Tyrese' life, as a fan, I will say that I am glad that he lets us in like he does (even though we have some mentallly challenged individuals that want to spoil this chance, by becoming an annoyance to artist like him), because it gives me the feeling like I know him but I don't. I am very proud of him and appreciate what he does for others. I would love to meet him.
Musical Updates!
First off,
This is for those who are into music and the artist.
Mario's CD -DNA is out in stores! This is his fourth album. I havent gotten my copy yet but i plan to.
Fizz and Boog - They have a couple things going on. They just recently have a single and video out called "Bounce" for the movie -Bring It On (the third or fourth movie out). They also have a mixtape out called "Night Life". I have not gotten that yet. You can get this mixtape from iTunes.
Marques Houston - Has a album out called "Mr.Houston" which is his fourth album out also! No i havent gotten that album yet. He also has a mixtape out called "Sex,Lies, and MH".
Previous:
Fizz has a mixtape out on iTunes called "PayDay" (which I had-before my computer crashed).
I like that cd. If you are a fan of his, you will definitely like it. It has seven tracks on it.
Marques Houston - has three album's out.
MH which was his first cd. I have that cd. It is a club banger with a couple of songs for the ladies. Next up was the album "Naked" which, lol, kind of speaks for itself. This album I had (i am not sure what happened to it). It was mainly a love cd. The ladies loved this cd. It showed a more "MATURE" side of Marques Houston.
The third cd was called "Veteran". This was more of a personal cd. It was filled with heartbreaks,lessons learned.
His newest cd "Mr.Houston" is to show a more mature Marques as a man, businessman and him as a person. (I plan to get that cd too).
Mario - First cd was "Mario". This was his first cd (which I had also) and it was him just young and having fun, lessons learned.
His second cd (which I had) was a more older Mario. A more grown Mario. It was called "Turning Point".
History:
Mario- he is from Baltimore. He came around when he was around the age of 15. With songs like Braid My Hair, C'Mon, and the remake of Just A Friend (2000). Since then he has been in two movies, Step Up (the first one) and Freedom Writers which was his most dramatic role as Andre. His personal life: his mother was a single mother who has recently recovered from a drug addiction with the help of her son Mario. It was made into a short documentary (that I felt should have been a reality show or movie).
Fizz and Boog: Both came from the four male group B2K. (Which meant Boys of the New Millieunm). They were out in 2001. (One of my favorite boy groups ever). Fizz who was the rapper of the group. They were managed by Chris Stokes and traveled. They had songs like Uh Huh, and Gots Ta Be. Until 2004 when the group split. Fizz (Government Name Druex Frederic), made a mixtape called PayDay. And Boog (Government Name: Jarell Houston), became a father to two little kids ( I think a boy and girl). Now they are teamed up with each other to take thier career to the next level.
Fizz, Boog, Marques Houston were in a 2004 released movie called You Got Served that was a dance film with their former bandmates-B2K's Omarion (Goverment Name:Omari Grandberry) -lead singer,Raz-B (Goverment Name: De'Mario Thorton),and IMx's Romeo (Goverment Name: Jerome Jones) and LDB (Goverment Name:Kelton Keesse).
Marques Houston: He was Roger from the show Sister,Sister. He was Batman in the boy group fka Immature which was changed to IMx. They were the "big brothers" to B2K. They came out in the 90's. They had songs like We Got It, Stay The Night. In the middle of their success, Marques' mother passed away when he was young. (which i assume brought songs like Please Don't Go and other lonely,heartfelf songs). Later on, Marques Houston went solo and had hits like That Girl, In The Club, Sex With You, Naked,Circle, and many others.
Today: Marques is the new CEO of the entertainment company that they grew up under,TUG Entertainment. He is working on a movie that is to come out called BoogieTown! (which is a dance movie), and much more to come.
This is for those who are into music and the artist.
Mario's CD -DNA is out in stores! This is his fourth album. I havent gotten my copy yet but i plan to.
Fizz and Boog - They have a couple things going on. They just recently have a single and video out called "Bounce" for the movie -Bring It On (the third or fourth movie out). They also have a mixtape out called "Night Life". I have not gotten that yet. You can get this mixtape from iTunes.
Marques Houston - Has a album out called "Mr.Houston" which is his fourth album out also! No i havent gotten that album yet. He also has a mixtape out called "Sex,Lies, and MH".
Previous:
Fizz has a mixtape out on iTunes called "PayDay" (which I had-before my computer crashed).
I like that cd. If you are a fan of his, you will definitely like it. It has seven tracks on it.
Marques Houston - has three album's out.
MH which was his first cd. I have that cd. It is a club banger with a couple of songs for the ladies. Next up was the album "Naked" which, lol, kind of speaks for itself. This album I had (i am not sure what happened to it). It was mainly a love cd. The ladies loved this cd. It showed a more "MATURE" side of Marques Houston.
The third cd was called "Veteran". This was more of a personal cd. It was filled with heartbreaks,lessons learned.
His newest cd "Mr.Houston" is to show a more mature Marques as a man, businessman and him as a person. (I plan to get that cd too).
Mario - First cd was "Mario". This was his first cd (which I had also) and it was him just young and having fun, lessons learned.
His second cd (which I had) was a more older Mario. A more grown Mario. It was called "Turning Point".
History:
Mario- he is from Baltimore. He came around when he was around the age of 15. With songs like Braid My Hair, C'Mon, and the remake of Just A Friend (2000). Since then he has been in two movies, Step Up (the first one) and Freedom Writers which was his most dramatic role as Andre. His personal life: his mother was a single mother who has recently recovered from a drug addiction with the help of her son Mario. It was made into a short documentary (that I felt should have been a reality show or movie).
Fizz and Boog: Both came from the four male group B2K. (Which meant Boys of the New Millieunm). They were out in 2001. (One of my favorite boy groups ever). Fizz who was the rapper of the group. They were managed by Chris Stokes and traveled. They had songs like Uh Huh, and Gots Ta Be. Until 2004 when the group split. Fizz (Government Name Druex Frederic), made a mixtape called PayDay. And Boog (Government Name: Jarell Houston), became a father to two little kids ( I think a boy and girl). Now they are teamed up with each other to take thier career to the next level.
Fizz, Boog, Marques Houston were in a 2004 released movie called You Got Served that was a dance film with their former bandmates-B2K's Omarion (Goverment Name:Omari Grandberry) -lead singer,Raz-B (Goverment Name: De'Mario Thorton),and IMx's Romeo (Goverment Name: Jerome Jones) and LDB (Goverment Name:Kelton Keesse).
Marques Houston: He was Roger from the show Sister,Sister. He was Batman in the boy group fka Immature which was changed to IMx. They were the "big brothers" to B2K. They came out in the 90's. They had songs like We Got It, Stay The Night. In the middle of their success, Marques' mother passed away when he was young. (which i assume brought songs like Please Don't Go and other lonely,heartfelf songs). Later on, Marques Houston went solo and had hits like That Girl, In The Club, Sex With You, Naked,Circle, and many others.
Today: Marques is the new CEO of the entertainment company that they grew up under,TUG Entertainment. He is working on a movie that is to come out called BoogieTown! (which is a dance movie), and much more to come.
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Thursday, April 10, 2008 at 10:38pm Edit Note Delete
I can see my dreamWhere I wanna beBut my reality kicks inShyness is my cloudIt follows me constantlyI need to get out from my hidingI need to shineMeet people and liveAfraid of RejectionsTired of being told noWanna be me
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Thursday, April 10, 2008 at 10:38pm Edit Note Delete
I can see my dreamWhere I wanna beBut my reality kicks inShyness is my cloudIt follows me constantlyI need to get out from my hidingI need to shineMeet people and liveAfraid of RejectionsTired of being told noWanna be me
Who Am I?
Who Am I?
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Saturday, September 19, 2009 at 10:10pm Edit Note Delete
Guess when you left, I left too. Cause ever since then i havent been the same.I was lost before but now im lost even more. I see the life i have and despite the fact that im alive and well, im gone. i sit in my life and instead of giving thanks, i complain. Mypain is much greater than my joy. I smiile to you but frown inside. I cant explain this, but as i learn, i see im not alone.i sit and think as to how i fit.fit in this world of confusion.i take music and writing and try to fit it in my life.I have many gifts but can't find a way to get them to unravel.If i died today, i wonder what would i be remembered as.Im not rapper,singer,writer or actor, so how do i go off?Some people ask if im despressed, no just stressed.Tired of the mess and wanna be free and happy.Take my pain and exppress it in a way that would help those i love.Wish for those i loved and pass, to have known that they were loved.Know that they had a place in my heart and dreams.As I go forward, I take you and those with me on earth, on my journey in life.If there is anything I can push me and give me strength, its those i love and my current status in life.I see my dream life and wanna feel it. But those in my dream life, are not happy. With spurts of inspiration here and there, I write.If i could, i'd spend my nights in the studio.If I could, I'd go back in time and hug him one more time.If there is one thing I hate, is to be told what to do.My tears are sad. My smile is love.My heart hurts. My emotion is anger.If I could just find my way and channel my emotions to positivity, i'd be good.Im alone cause it helps me but it confuses me.Music is my life. Family is my life. Without my life, Nothing can filll me.I'm empty. I look deep inside me and write. Apart of my life on both sides die and I cried.I write my emotions and am misunderstood. The only difference between me and a singer/rapper in the industry, is they can release their emotions to the world. I keep my emotions to myself. My shyness and fear of rejection, take me away from my greatness.Songwriter Krystal? Maybe.Author Krystal? Maybe.Rapper? HA!Singer? Eh!Either way, how do I make these maybe's and dreams into reality.My Personal Message:-Until then I write, listen to others music and continue to dream.Love you Tupac(RIP),Daron(RIP),Brandy,Michael Jackson(RIP),Left-Eye(RIP),Aaliyah(RIP),and my family, and any other person who has inspiried me in my life. Thank You! I love you all! I will keep finding my way in life.
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Saturday, September 19, 2009 at 10:10pm Edit Note Delete
Guess when you left, I left too. Cause ever since then i havent been the same.I was lost before but now im lost even more. I see the life i have and despite the fact that im alive and well, im gone. i sit in my life and instead of giving thanks, i complain. Mypain is much greater than my joy. I smiile to you but frown inside. I cant explain this, but as i learn, i see im not alone.i sit and think as to how i fit.fit in this world of confusion.i take music and writing and try to fit it in my life.I have many gifts but can't find a way to get them to unravel.If i died today, i wonder what would i be remembered as.Im not rapper,singer,writer or actor, so how do i go off?Some people ask if im despressed, no just stressed.Tired of the mess and wanna be free and happy.Take my pain and exppress it in a way that would help those i love.Wish for those i loved and pass, to have known that they were loved.Know that they had a place in my heart and dreams.As I go forward, I take you and those with me on earth, on my journey in life.If there is anything I can push me and give me strength, its those i love and my current status in life.I see my dream life and wanna feel it. But those in my dream life, are not happy. With spurts of inspiration here and there, I write.If i could, i'd spend my nights in the studio.If I could, I'd go back in time and hug him one more time.If there is one thing I hate, is to be told what to do.My tears are sad. My smile is love.My heart hurts. My emotion is anger.If I could just find my way and channel my emotions to positivity, i'd be good.Im alone cause it helps me but it confuses me.Music is my life. Family is my life. Without my life, Nothing can filll me.I'm empty. I look deep inside me and write. Apart of my life on both sides die and I cried.I write my emotions and am misunderstood. The only difference between me and a singer/rapper in the industry, is they can release their emotions to the world. I keep my emotions to myself. My shyness and fear of rejection, take me away from my greatness.Songwriter Krystal? Maybe.Author Krystal? Maybe.Rapper? HA!Singer? Eh!Either way, how do I make these maybe's and dreams into reality.My Personal Message:-Until then I write, listen to others music and continue to dream.Love you Tupac(RIP),Daron(RIP),Brandy,Michael Jackson(RIP),Left-Eye(RIP),Aaliyah(RIP),and my family, and any other person who has inspiried me in my life. Thank You! I love you all! I will keep finding my way in life.
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